f*cked up life *

so me and BEE broke up today and i feel horrible. he's such a good guy and i know he's my guy for life, but at this point in my life, i can't be truly commited to him. God know i want to, but i know it won't happen. he's heartbroken right now, but i knew that i didn't want to hurt him with my actions if we were to stay together.

i do feel that we will get back together, but i don't know how soon that's gonna be. i love him with all of my heart, but i gotta get brittany together first before i can be truly with someone. i have commitment issues and i love sex to much to be in a long distance relationship. idk what's going on anymore. i never used this in my days, but fml =(